Love Can Be So Cruel..!

I fell in love with this guy but my timing really sucked....because he had someone else..he's one of my best friend we been through so much together. we have always been there for eachother.Well of course i was a complete idiot and didn't relize how i felt until it was already to late.. :( Why does life have to be so cruel and why did i have to be so dense and not relize it until it was already to late... Well to make matters worst i ended up confessing to him who i like...but because he wouldn't stop asking me...and then he gave me the silent treatment and eouldn't look at me for not telling him..so i did and plus part of me hope a little it was because he might actually like me too.. So after i told him he stop talking to me but because he needed time to think about things...well after a couple of days he atarted talking to me...like nothing was wrong..so i finally talked to him bout it.And he told me that he felt the same way but he had someone right now so it couldn't be....but he said he wasn't with someone that we would be together....So like a dummy i waited for him...Because i knew what he was going through was hard..and i hated that i caused so much trouble even though he always telling me i didn't....Well it been about 3 months and we are still not together and him and that girl are always on and off...My friend tells me it might because he fears losing our friendship if it doesn't work out...and i've been thinking for awhile what if she right and also what if he just told me he liked me so he wouldn't hurt me...and i can't live with that so i'm finally going to talk to him..and see what going on...if he likes me or not... I mean i'm always going to be here for him even if it's not as lover but as a friend..and i want him to know that..So he can tell me how he really feels and if he really doesn't like me then it ok...cause in time i'll move on...

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