I have recently lost a very close friend. And it is something that i still don't know how to handle.
He was born with a serious heart condition which led him to several operations which ended up being sucessfull and he lived an healthy life with no heart problems. Few months before his death he became a father, something he has dreamt forever, i had never seen him so happy, he finally had the life he wanted.
Near the end of February i got a call from another close friend, that he was taken to the hospital, suffered a stroke at home. Two days later, after being in comma at the hospital, he died during the night. He was 23. His daughter was 3 months old at the time. His heart condition had nothing to do with his death, which makes this so much frustrating, he fought against it for so long and won, and then he fell to something else no one could have expected. His death is still not explained, theres an investigation going, rumor says that there was something in his system that led to the situation that ended in his death.
Like i said in the beginning loosing a close friend, as i am 21, and this was a first, i still don't know how to handle it. The whole story of how it happened still haunts me, all his effort to fight off his born condition, recently achieving his life goal of being a father, and everything ended in the blink of an eye.
I was raised catholic, and i dont wanna get too much into religion as it would not be allowed, but just to point out that during the weekend that everything happened i become the most religious person ever, mostly it just makes things easier to handle...After it, i changed, i became less religiously, due to what happened, if there is an higher power how would this judgement be considered fair? I brought this up because i wanted to point how this whole situation changed me.
His birthday is comming soon, and i know its gonna be a very difficult day to go by. I still have a lot of trouble handling this, i had a lot of people who supported me and still do and this is what kept me going but i have to admit it was really hard. I wasn't prepared for this, i don't think anyone ever is.
Thanks for giving me a place to voice this.
To all those who have lost someone, everyone has their way of living through and keeping them "alive", in my opinion no one is truly dead until his memory fades. I know my friend left me great knowledge, on how i should live my life, so his memory is well alive within most of his close friends and in his daughter, and this is all someone can ask whenever they leave this world, that they somehow made a difference and left the world a better place, and i do believe he did strongly.