Mai stands up, holding her arm as she looks to the side with her cheeks flushed. She's drowning in worry over him and stands there for a moment, forcing herself not to have a sudden outburst or get upset from the guilt she's facing over him being so tired.
Mai: ...I need to get stronger...I need to contract others...
She needed to contract something that could fight or do some of the things Kilen could do that way he could rest. She hated having to make him like that...
Sitting down for a moment, she held her knees against her chest as she was lost in her thoughts, wishing...hoping, that she could do something or...at least...anything. Mostly because of his sake, but also for her new...family. Malice sat atop her head, looking down as her front legs kept tapping on the girl's forehead lightly. She wouldn't understand...Mai didn't want her to anyways.
...Kilen couldn't....read thoughts...could he?
If he did, she was going to be unable to look him in the eyes then. Oh, woe....Thinking hurt. It seemed everyone else had some part in this group...or at least someone else to talk to and rely on. She had Malice, who -- while she enjoyed her, and they could talk -- wasn't humanoid. And not only that...She had to keep her hidden from those that would hurt her. A sigh escaped her lips as she quietly walked out of the inn, wondering off before anyone could notice her. Yes, she was being inconsiderate and selfish, but to **** with it all. She just wanted...she wanted someone like Adrien had Nila. Like how Rosie had Rillianne. Like how Jade had Ryder. It was like being a black sheep. She needn't spoil Rosie's reunion with her foul mood.
Mai: What am I supposed to do...?
She felt lost. Driven off-course. Like...everywhere they went, would only lead to people trying to hurt them. What if she was right? What if this was all...What if everything that happened was in vain? What if all of the lives lost to the Grievers could not be given satisfaction? She was far away from the group now, on the borders of the village as she held her head and sat down. It hurt to think....