i-love-him-more-than-anything

Dusty..you are everything to me. You make me so happy..But when Im alone Im a mess...I love you so much sweetheart..I will die for you any day. I never knew that I woul dhave someone who loves me like you do. I never knew that You would be the one...I thought I wasnt good enough...Was too worthless. But you changed that feeling about me. I need you. Your everything to me. I love making you smile, laugh, everything in between. I will love you forever..Nothing can tear or break us apart..Death will never part us. I will do anything for you just to keep you safe. You mean everything to me.

live-for-now-not-for-then

You are my strength and beauty. You take everything away inside of me. It takes so much of me to live like this. I cant be a fraud anymore. I cant be fake. Im tired of always faking that Im happy all the time. IM not happy all the time. Im always..angry...I love you..

who-i-used-to-be

Sometimes i wonder would it be best? I dont know what to do...but now I realize that I just wasnt strong...Just a monster in my eyes. Thats all I will ever be. Nothing More. I dont understand everything right..It seems as if the scars will never go away..Nothing will ever go away..no matter how far ive come to try to rid of this....curse.

the-past

This Memories i just wish would go away. they repeat themselves over and over again for years. If i could change i would. if i could take it all back i would. its just always easier to run away from it all....but i cant do that. it just makes the pressure and the pain much worse than it already is...but im not giving up. im not giving up on myself nor life/
I just need to calm down..think things throgh with myself...i hate myself dammit..my mind is so cloudy..blocking everything..just building up inside..keeps going..over and over again
just over and over again...over and over..

the-truth

Where are all these feelings hiding?
Dancing in and out my mind
Burning up all that I long for
Feeding me till my decline
Where are you? My soul is bleeding
I am searching am I blind?
All alone and bound forever
Trapped inside me for all time

To all these nameless feelings
I cant deal with in my life
To all these greedy people
Trying to feed on what is mine
You�ve got to filll your hunger
And stop ****ing with my mind
I know its time to leave these places far behind

(i did not make this but it really does connect to me...

suffering

When Im Alone I Go To A Place Were No ONe Can Find Me.
I Want To Be God. I Want To Be Good. I Want To Show Everyone..
I Cant Help But Feel LIke This. I Feel The Need To Live This Way.
I Feel The Need To Hurt. The Past Wont Go Away It Never WIll.
I Dont Understand...Anything...Its So Hard. Nothing Will Ever Change All Because Of Me.
I Wish I Could Change The Past..I Can See Her Now Laughing At Me.